money

I KNOW MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING

BUT OH 

DO TELL ME THAT MONEY 

IS NOT IMPORTANT 

!

Another movie post!

Assalamualaikum, howdy?

Is the above movie scene familiar to you? Yeah? High five!! This is one of my movies to turn to when I'm feeling blue, just because of this scene alone. My mind is always blown each time this scene is on. Watching the whole movie would left me in tears and through those tears, I could let go of my stress and worries before that and feel anew.

What triggers me of writing this post is that the past week I have been reading about mental disorders in a famous confession FB page. A few confessors confessed about how they dealt/dealing with psychological disorders. Some are because of traumatic childhood experience and some are due to depression. I am not going to comment on their disclosures because I know the feeling those confessors are enduring. Been there done that. It's hard to say if I ever recover but I am  better now.

Anyway, this post was meant to be a some kind of a motivation to myself to start changing myself. Because only I can make it better only if I keep telling myself that.

P/S: The movie name is Bridesmaids (2011)

À plus tard!

Anniversary

Today is the first anniversary of my staying in a local university. I am a registered research student for 4 months now, but only recently I feel more passionate in finishing my research. I know, wasted of time kan. InshaaAllah  this year I am much wiser. Enough of the shenanigans. InshaaAllah this zeal is here to stay and NOT fade away! :D

A year here taught me more of life. I learnt how to deal with people not from my usual 'bubble' and I sort of have to get one leg out of my comfort zone. And of course like any other places I've been I acquainted with few people with less common sense. Ughhhhh. Just when I thought I wanted to start 'new -.- Anyway, to come and think about it, in terms of activities, I actually didn't actually do much. Hmm, wha have I been doing all year?! GOSH! Oh well, 2016 is in the past now, and like many people around the world would agree, 2016 did suck. 

So for this new year, let us make a change to the world by changing ourselves for the better. :) 

P/S: 2017 resolution, more posts maybe? :P

Passion

Assalamualaikum, Good evening,

So last weekend, I went out with several friends. Being in middle 20's, most of them are now working in different industries. I asked my petite friend how is working life since she started working a couple of months ago. And the answer I get was quite disappointing. And then she proceed to ask our other friends whether working is 'fun' or not. Of course, their answers are negative too. Suddenly I had this mini anxiety in which I was thinking what kind of job is 'fun' in this world? What job should I do after my studying that can be considered 'fun'? But then I realized that when they say it wasn't fun, it is not actually because of the job itself. I thought so too because when we started working, we should know of our responsibilities and our job scope. What make work a 'life pooper' is actually the people we had to deal with whilst working. 

Then I did  reflection and thought to myself 'What drive people to wake up every morning and do the same thing the did everyday?' What is their passion? I did get to ask a friend and she said it's of treating the patients and seeing them getting better can give her satisfaction. In short, helping people. What is mine? This had lingered in my mind for a few days now and I still can't figure it out. I guess for now I'll live like  robot then. Living life day to day with no meaning.

Silent Bullies

Assalamualaikum! Gosh! It has been a year exactly today!

So today I want to rant on the above title. [Edited]. SO this post is actually about people or person who don't have common sense.

A person taught me that I should never be too kind/friendly to anybody. Because being too kind will make you vulnerable to bullying. Silent bullying, caused by those with less or no common sense at all. This type of people is toxic. Really cause they are your friend, and you don't want to bicker over small things. But trust me, when these small things add up, and when you reached your limit, things could get ugly.    

What should I do? Well, a friend suggested that I should just use the same excuse over and over again until she digested it. If it takes forever, then forever it is! So for now, I will follow my friend's advice and see how it goes. Maybe then I will update on the next post (if I still remember the existence of this blog by then) :P

Ciao for now!

Bad things, Good things.

Assalamualaikum wbt, and Hi,

Nowadays banyak sangat kisah-kisah negatif dalam media sosial. Be it about politics, murders, lies, friendship etc. Kadang-kadang rasa susah hati baca posts tu sebab rasa dekat sangat-sangat dengan diri. Ye la, if things happen to others, it could happen to us too kan. Haritu kecoh pasal ignorance bintang The Apprentice, tentang kawan makan kawan, yang menyayat hati, kisah penduduk Syria yang tersepit dengan agenda politik orang tertentu dan of course kisah politik negara ini sendiri.

Saban hari baca kisah tak best ni kadang-kadang rasa nak sumpah-sumpah je semua yang jahat-jahat tu. Bukan setakat F word lah, nak bagi semua huruf dalam alphabet tu. huhu

Baca pasal politik negara ni, rasa nak berhijrah ke negara lain. Tapi apakan daya, lari dari masalah tidak akan mampu menyelesaikan masalah berkenaan, cewah, tapi sebab utamanya soal duitlah. haha! Siapa tak sayang negara sendiri beb, sayang la.. Negara tanah tumpah darahku kott. Sebelum ni, pasal inflasi (or something like that) tapi ditenteramkan oleh PM katanya kewangan Malaysia ok berdasarkan rating Fiscal ke apa (takde ilmu dalam bidang ekonomi, harap maklum), lepas tu dah siap bentang budget, tetiba tambang pengangkutan awam pula naik, dah tu hari ni yang latest nak gubal balik polisi biasiswa JPA. Pasal JPA tu terasa okei, sebab alasan nak gubal balik tu sebab penerima biasiswa taknak kerja gov. Ada yang sesuka hati gagalkan interview, sebab taknak kerja gov.Hmm.. tapi haritu gov sendiri yang dah bekukan pengambilan penjawat awam yang baru. Sedih tahu, sebab saya lah salah seorang pemegang biasiswa tersebut. Tertunggu-tunggu juga kot tawaran dari kerajaan walaupun tahu susah. Diri sendiri pun terasa juga nak berkhidmat, balas balik budi baik taja pelajaran. Tak lupa diri pun.. tapi tu lah..makin fikir makin sakit pulak hati kitew..

Tak cukup dengan berita dalam negara, ditambah pula dengan berita yang kurang enak didengar dari luar negara. Pasal Trump tu haa! Apa benda la mamat tu! Vuduh tak bertempat. Dah la nak jadi presideng nasi goreng USA, tapi manifesto entah apa-apa. Dilaung-laungkannya kata-kata berunsur racism, nak buat polisi itu inilah kononnya nak tahu semua tindak tanduk orang islam di Amareka. Yang peliknya, ada yang nak sokong dia tu. Ramai! Ramai yang berfikiran sempit macam dia rupanya. Tapi mujur dia dah tak boleh bertanding dah. hehe. Selain tu, keadaan di Syria yang tidak menentu. Perang saudara yang tidak kehabisan. Sedih, sebak tengok berita Syria saban hari. Jenazah pelarian kanak-kanak, Aylan yang terdampar di laut. Kisah ayah yang mendukung anak kecil jatuh tersandung dek perbuatan seorang wartawan. Sangat mengilukan hati. Pelarian yang disekat masuk ke negara lain untuk berteduh. Sungguh berat ujian mereka. Sungguh berbeza ujian mereka dan ujian kita. Bertambah pilu dengar perkhabaran Rusia dan UK ingin mengebom Syria atas alasan menghentikan pengganas ISIS. Tetapi mangsanya adalah rakyat Syria sendiri. November lepas, satu dunia digemparkan dengan kes pengeboman di beberapa buah lokasi di Paris, salah satu bandaraya terkenal di dunia. Satu dunia kecoh bimbang akan keluarga, rakan-rakan dan kenalan yang berada di tempat kejadian. Lalu tersebarlah teori-teori konspirasi dan segelintir darinya mencemari imej agama islam. 

Geram rasanya melihat agama islam dicaci dimaki di media sosial. Tetapi saya tidak menyalahkan mereka 200%. Bukan salah mereka apabila media banyak menyiarkan berita buruk berbanding berita menyenangkan. Mereka (terutamanya di US) dimomokkan dengan penipuan demi penipuan oleh rangkaian Fox News. Tidakkah mereka fikir, orang islam itu bukanlah malaikat, bukanlah bidadari atau bidasari. Orang islam hanyalah manusia seperti mereka yang juga punya nafsu. Tidakkah mereke berhenti sejenak dan berfikir, dalam kalangan penganut kristian juga ada yang berniat jahat seperti KKK. Hmm...

Tapi seminggu dua ni, makin bertambah pula berita-berita positif yang membuatkan hati ini terasa 'faith in humanity restored'. Saya paling terkesan dengan page fb HONY (Humans of New York). Sudah lama saya mengikuti page ini yang memaparkan kisah-kisah penduduk New York. Tetapi untuk tempoh seminggu pemilik page tersebut membuat liputan khas pelarian Syria yang diberi kebenaran untuk tinggal di US. Kisah-kisah mereka mampu mengalirkan air mata namun bibir kembali tersenyum tatkala membaca komen-komen pengguna fb di page tersebut. Pelbagai bangsa dari pelbagai negara bersatu memberi kata-kata semangat dan dorongan kepada pelarian tersebut. Ramai yang ingin membantu dengan menawarkan khidmat pertolongan walaupun sekecil menyambut mereka di bandar.

Selain itu, tidak kurang juga negara Kanada yang mensasarkan target menerima 10K pelarian sehingga 31 Jan 2016. Yang paling mengharukan, mereka menyambut kedatangan pelarian Syria dengan alunan Thola'al Badru. Umat islam pasti tahu, lagu yang sama dinyanyikan semasa baginda Rasulullah saw berhijrah ke Madinah. Di skala yang lebih kecil, terdapat banyak post fb yang memaparkan kisah-kisah samaritan yang membantu golongan dalam kesusahan tanpa mengira warna kulit dan perbezaan bahasa serta agama. Yang penting adalah "warna" hati.

Saya pasti masih banyak lagi kebaikan di dunia ini, tetapi terlindung oleh kejahatan yang lebih banyak diuar-uarkan. 

YESTERDAY I WAS CLEVER, SO I WANTED TO CHANGE THE WORLD.

TODAY I AM WISER, SO I AM CHANGING MYSELF. 

It's Morphin' Time

GO GO POWER RANGERS! *insert hyped up Power Rangers theme song* 

I'm sure most of us had watched this series at least once in our lives. But do you know, other than the 6 famous Rangers, there is another Ranger? However this one Ranger does not cause the field to explode whenever she poses. This Ranger has no enemy ( at least one that is known) and this Ranger can't fight. WAIT.... if she can't fight, then what makes this Ranger a Ranger then? Well, this Ranger ain't no like any other Ranger, because this Ranger is a Lone Ranger, and I'm proud to say that I am one. LOL. 

I like to use that word whenever I go out alone. I am not lonely people, it's just that I like to have time for myself too. Going out alone makes me more alert of my surroundings. I like to observe people you see and I often thought to myself why would a person do such and such? or what leads them to act such a behaviour? 

Being alone also makes you more approachable. But this one has its :) and :( . The :) is when you meet unexpected people who could turned out to be a friend, while the :( is when the people could also be a foe. Or the in betweeners, like a salesperson. :P

In my experience, I met so many people on my journey to a destination but I will always  (so far) remember the three of them. 

I met kak L at a bus station. It was already late evening and I was waiting for the bus to my hometown, but because I started my journey since the morning, my phone battery was already low. I need my phone so that I could call my sibling and be home safely. And so I panicked, searching for the electric socket. When I found one, there was a lady using the other socket so I sat beside her. Another episode of terror occurred as the phone just won't charged. Talk about bad timing, huh! So I had to asked the lady and she lent me her charger without hesitation eventho she was charging her phone. It was also a lucky day for me as the lady too is using the same phone brand as mine. So, while waiting we introduced ourselves. After the phone was charged sufficiently, we headed to the cafe (her treat :D ). Personal stories were exchanged over dinner and so were phone numbers. 

I met NC while waiting for the ERL. She was heading to Putrajaya and I, to TBS. She initially inquired me about the train schedule and thus begin our conversation. She is a New Yorker but currently living in Taiwan. She had traveled to several states in Malaysia. She used to study about the river turtles in Terengganu and really like the 'blue rice' in Kelantan. :P Her research about the turtles intrigued me because I never knew river turtles existed. I thought there's only the sea turtles. (FACT: river turtles do not have the mechanism to get rid of the salt water from its body). We continued our conversation in the train until I reach my destination and waved goodbyes. We are still in touch (sometimes) through fb.

I met S in KL Sentral. S is in her 50-ish from Missouri and was travelling alone. S was facing a difficult situation where her passport and purse were stolen. She had been sleeping at the McD for the night. She told me she wanted to go to a church nearby and needed one Ringgit for the bus fare. I was, of course, skeptical of this. After all, I was alone. After talking to her for some time and seeing her tired yet tense expression, I decided to dispose off my prejudice and helped her. 

I will miss all Lone Ranger moments as I don't go out much whenever I'm home.