RUDE!

Assalamualaikum,

I have been wanting to update this blog but then I have no topic to talk. My life is purty much the same everyday. D: Nonetheless, on a Wednesday evening of the last week of April, an unacceptable incident happened! :O 

So my day started as usual, blergh3..., but I went back late that evening, around 7 pm. So I decided to take a shortcut home but that shortcut could be risky to cars (the road is very narrow, only one car can pass through at one time. Also, you cannot see the incoming cars/motorcycles as the road is a 'S' shape and houses restrict your vision). As I driving on that narrow road, apparently there is another ahead, and as I am in a easier position to reverse, I did, but very slowly as I lost my orientation. So my reverse was not perfect and I stopped for a while to give way for motorcycle behind me to pass through first. Then came a bozo on a red motorcycle suddenly bang on my car hood and SHOUTED 'Reverse!' at me. Stunned, and being a hot-headed, I of course shouted back from inside the car. Then that bozo went away but from the rear-view mirror, I saw him standing on his bike while laughing (from this moment, I knew he is a rempit bozo guy). I finally succeeded reversing and mouthing sorry to the car up front and went back home. I was holding back my tears. Tears of anger.

Once I got into my room, I cried in silence while cursing and praying something bad happen to that bozo. I felt angry yet helpless. How could someone do that to you? Someone was being rude and yet you can't defend yourself. I wasn't at fault. My head hurts so much that night as it did on the next day. So many tears wasted, for a bozo. I did not cry for him, but for me. However, looking back, I was grateful I didn't say anything provocative as it will make thing worse. Also, I am still finding the courage to forgive that bozo and making peace with myself. As you can see, I still can't forgive him entirely as I call him a bozo in this post. :P In my head, he had died  a million ways and there a some of my favourite. LOL.

K.tata!

...lies in the eyes of Beholder

Assalamualaikum,

I'm sure most of us heard the saying beauty lies in the eyes of beholder, right? And I'm all for it too. But in this post I am not going to talk about physical attractiveness. I will ramble on something that has been on my mind this past week. It occurred to me that SUCCESS also lies in the eyes of beholder, because each person has a different perception of success. One might view success as having so much money till they run out of ideas to spend them, some might view it as having a good stable job that'll guarantee their future or having a firm and practicing religious belief. The best thing about this is there is no wrong answer! Well, if your life goal(s) is(are) not malintent, then dream away!

There are several people I followed on social media platforms whom are considered successful in their field. I followed entrepreneurs, fashion model, teachers, philanthropist, non-profit organizations, insurance agent, authors,doctors and many more. It's inspiring to see people become success in their own way because it made me think of my own definition of success. Anyway, the one thing in common that I see when watching all these successful people is that they give back to the community, also by their own way. For example, this one entrepreneur is inspiring people especially the young generations by giving them prep talk everyday through his social media. This one author wrote a book on cancer and how it affected the people by using his words and make us the readers feel intensely towards the disease and also the primary and secondary sufferers. People from different jobs come together under one organization to help those in need. :')

But to achieve successful-ness (?) we must swim a flaming sea or climb the highest mountain. What do these figurative sayings mean anyway? It means for us to be out of our comfort zone. Get out of our blankets and use boxes instead. Being in our danger zone meaning we are pushing our boundaries, stretching our limits and knowing that we can do more than we anticipated. Positive thinking really helps when we loose a battle and preparing our mind for our next step. 

You lose, move on.

- Abrupt ending. GTG-  

money

I KNOW MONEY IS NOT EVERYTHING

BUT OH 

DO TELL ME THAT MONEY 

IS NOT IMPORTANT 

!

Another movie post!

Assalamualaikum, howdy?

Is the above movie scene familiar to you? Yeah? High five!! This is one of my movies to turn to when I'm feeling blue, just because of this scene alone. My mind is always blown each time this scene is on. Watching the whole movie would left me in tears and through those tears, I could let go of my stress and worries before that and feel anew.

What triggers me of writing this post is that the past week I have been reading about mental disorders in a famous confession FB page. A few confessors confessed about how they dealt/dealing with psychological disorders. Some are because of traumatic childhood experience and some are due to depression. I am not going to comment on their disclosures because I know the feeling those confessors are enduring. Been there done that. It's hard to say if I ever recover but I am  better now.

Anyway, this post was meant to be a some kind of a motivation to myself to start changing myself. Because only I can make it better only if I keep telling myself that.

P/S: The movie name is Bridesmaids (2011)

À plus tard!

Anniversary

Today is the first anniversary of my staying in a local university. I am a registered research student for 4 months now, but only recently I feel more passionate in finishing my research. I know, wasted of time kan. InshaaAllah  this year I am much wiser. Enough of the shenanigans. InshaaAllah this zeal is here to stay and NOT fade away! :D

A year here taught me more of life. I learnt how to deal with people not from my usual 'bubble' and I sort of have to get one leg out of my comfort zone. And of course like any other places I've been I acquainted with few people with less common sense. Ughhhhh. Just when I thought I wanted to start 'new -.- Anyway, to come and think about it, in terms of activities, I actually didn't actually do much. Hmm, wha have I been doing all year?! GOSH! Oh well, 2016 is in the past now, and like many people around the world would agree, 2016 did suck. 

So for this new year, let us make a change to the world by changing ourselves for the better. :) 

P/S: 2017 resolution, more posts maybe? :P

Passion

Assalamualaikum, Good evening,

So last weekend, I went out with several friends. Being in middle 20's, most of them are now working in different industries. I asked my petite friend how is working life since she started working a couple of months ago. And the answer I get was quite disappointing. And then she proceed to ask our other friends whether working is 'fun' or not. Of course, their answers are negative too. Suddenly I had this mini anxiety in which I was thinking what kind of job is 'fun' in this world? What job should I do after my studying that can be considered 'fun'? But then I realized that when they say it wasn't fun, it is not actually because of the job itself. I thought so too because when we started working, we should know of our responsibilities and our job scope. What make work a 'life pooper' is actually the people we had to deal with whilst working. 

Then I did  reflection and thought to myself 'What drive people to wake up every morning and do the same thing the did everyday?' What is their passion? I did get to ask a friend and she said it's of treating the patients and seeing them getting better can give her satisfaction. In short, helping people. What is mine? This had lingered in my mind for a few days now and I still can't figure it out. I guess for now I'll live like  robot then. Living life day to day with no meaning.

Silent Bullies

Assalamualaikum! Gosh! It has been a year exactly today!

So today I want to rant on the above title. [Edited]. SO this post is actually about people or person who don't have common sense.

A person taught me that I should never be too kind/friendly to anybody. Because being too kind will make you vulnerable to bullying. Silent bullying, caused by those with less or no common sense at all. This type of people is toxic. Really cause they are your friend, and you don't want to bicker over small things. But trust me, when these small things add up, and when you reached your limit, things could get ugly.    

What should I do? Well, a friend suggested that I should just use the same excuse over and over again until she digested it. If it takes forever, then forever it is! So for now, I will follow my friend's advice and see how it goes. Maybe then I will update on the next post (if I still remember the existence of this blog by then) :P

Ciao for now!